running through my head

[listening to] random tv sounds

pessimism does pay off, you know. it makes relief more apparent, and makes one an optimist in the end, after all. i'm talking about my grades, except chem and socio. chem is a 2.25, as i whined about in a former state of melodrama. socio classcards not out yet, they'll be released on nov. 3. but i no longer feel that urgency to get it, just to compute if i get a higher than dos average.

i got my ss1 classcard from the psych department. the old guy there was nice. i didn't know my section (forgot my form 5 -_-;) so i just gave him the time and he hunted for my section's classcards. then when i saw my grade, i was like, whoa. it was higher than i predicted. i could see he was amused at my reaction, parang napasayaw-sayaw ako dun. hehe.

i had about the same reaction after getting my math classcard. i thought, from what was posted outside sir's room, that i'd be getting a 2.25 (hence the fear of losing scholarship). it was a dos. yes, i know it's not high. i mean, my dad's pretty disappointed in me. i'm disappointed in me. but hey, it's alright. i'll be a better student next sem.

same goes for eng 12. i feel guilty now for dissing my prof's extremely low-volumed voice. and imitating her son, who hangs around with her --- *in smithers' voice* mommy, quarter to 1 na. i remember complaining incessantly before that i learned nothing in english 12. i take that back. of all the works of literature we took up, sacrifice, yasuhiro kawabata's short stories, the bros. karamazov, and one hundred years of solitude were all new to me. and then there's her anecdotes of things past.

i really am very grateful.^_^

***

i found out today that [he] is going to be taking the removals from math 17. that brought back a flood of emotion that i thought i finally got rid of.

i cared. i was concerned. in fact i wanted to text him on the spot, ask him if he's ok, that sort of stuff. acads has never been his main priority - with him it was always just soccer, and guitar. but i didn't think he would neglect it this much, specially since he wants to study elsewhere. maybe he didn't go to class often because of his early-morning visits to arneow. :P

and then i thought: [she] hasn't been taking care of him. but i'm prolly just being biased. harhar. they're prolly happy, even with shit like that happening.

maybe i just want a chance to show that i still care *non-romantically*. i know i said it's his loss, but it's also mine. before everything got screwed up so badly, we were so happy. and i thought, even if things ended, it'd be like before only without the romantic crap.

i was so wrong. there are always going to be these invisible lines i'm not supposed to cross, always things i shouldn't ask about for fear of getting hurt.

down with the yankees!

[listening to] the marlins' victorious screaming, live on espn

GO MARLINS! HAHAHAHA! world champs!^o^

sobered

[listening to] still my own muffled laughter

out of curiosity, i did googlisms for people i know (yes, i need to stop now).

Googlism for: paula [surname]

paula ... is a sophomore at d'youville college where she is majoring in english
paula ... is presently the english as a second language instructional supervisor for the texas youth commission in austin
paula ... is a psychiatrist working with immigrant women in the usa
paula ... on the run in montana
paula ... is a very successful teacher here in salinas

the others didn't turn up results. hehe.

i did one for [ex] and a particular phrase caught my eye - [ex] is [current crush].

that was kind of disturbing.

anyway, try it yourself to see the other results. one said "... is the guilty one". i don't know why i found that so funny. maybe because it's so true.

the fangirl takes over

[listening to] my own muffled laughter

have taken a page from vilma's book and messed around with googlism.

Googlism for: dochin

dochin is too cute
dochin is so funny
dochin is sooo kakkoi

hai, hai. *giggles madly*

Googlism for: kaname kawabata

kaname kawabata is so fine

*doesn't really care that much*

Googlism for: jonathan rhys meyers

jonathan rhys meyers is kicking on
jonathan rhys meyers is wonderful
jonathan rhys meyers is a marvel to watch on screen as he tackles a wide range of roles few actors could ever dare pull off
jonathan rhys meyers is clutching his interview survival kit
jonathan rhys meyers is still hot
jonathan rhys meyers is brian slade
jonathan rhys meyers is on fire
jonathan rhys meyers is a talented actor from ireland who is rapidly gaining worldwide attention
jonathan rhys meyers is the prettiest star
jonathan rhys meyers is also adding his singing voice on the soundtrack
jonathan rhys meyers is just your average bloke from cork
jonathan rhys meyers is positioned to be one of the biggest stars of his generation
jonathan rhys meyers is a star in the making
jonathan rhys meyers is that he can date toni collette all he wants
jonathan rhys meyers is appealing as the coach for whose affections the girls vie
jonathan rhys meyers is the only one on the cover of december interview magazine but there is a bit on toni collette and christian bale featured inside
jonathan rhys meyers is the very essence of emotionally troubled teenager as
jonathan rhys meyers is an up and coming irish actor
jonathan rhys meyers is suitably chilling as the vicious mackeson
jonathan rhys meyers is an appropriately wan and self
jonathan rhys meyers is a real cuitie
jonathan rhys meyers is? you can see a picture of him here
jonathan rhys meyers is at a scary point in his life right now
jonathan rhys meyers is 24 today
jonathan rhys meyers is deliciously devious
jonathan rhys meyers is beautiful
jonathan rhys meyers is
jonathan rhys meyers is a perfect steerpike
jonathan rhys meyers is single
jonathan rhys meyers is the scheming steerpike in the bbc's superb miniseries gormenghast
jonathan rhys meyers is not worthy of playing a character with that name
jonathan rhys meyers is 25
jonathan rhys meyers is 24
jonathan rhys meyers is a really fit bloke
jonathan rhys meyers is cast as brian slade
jonathan rhys meyers is quite possibly the most beautiful creature who ever walked
jonathan rhys meyers is just a lovely little piece of eye candy
jonathan rhys meyers is gorgeous
jonathan rhys meyers is incredibly beautiful
jonathan rhys meyers is released
jonathan rhys meyers is a circa
jonathan rhys meyers is still playing brian slade in a civil war epic must remain one of life's enduring mysteries
jonathan rhys meyers is one of the most beautiful creatures i have ever laid eyes on
jonathan rhys meyers is on fire fan club with message boards and chat rooms
jonathan rhys meyers is tremendous as steerpike
jonathan rhys meyers is one seriously beautiful man
jonathan rhys meyers is a hottie
jonathan rhys meyers is good looking and a gifted actor too
jonathan rhys meyers is cute
jonathan rhys meyers is in "ride with the devil"
jonathan rhys meyers is without a doubt one of the most naturally beautiful people in the world

ooh. not really surprised at this one.~_~

Googlism for: da pump

da pump is also an all okinawan group
da pump is pretty good
da pump is issa hentona
da pump is one of the most popular dancing groups in japan
da pump is here with energetic dance moves and a huge following of fans
da pump is in
da pump is okinowan
da pump is only the best group that breakdance
da pump is a japanese hip
da pump is the best group ever and one day i would want to meet them
da pump is da best
da pump is there to give you special presents
da pump is a dance/pop boy group
da pump is one of the most popular dancing group in japan
da pump is real cute and yukinari is the cutest one
da pump is more n'sync in flavor
da pump is because they make me laugh
da pump is not famous korea
da pump is the best
da pump is available in a wide range of sizes and stage combinations to ensure optimal effi
da pump is certainly a great one and worth to spend on
da pump is the best dancing and singing group i ahve ever seen
da pump is
da pump is posted
da pump is japanese dance vocal units
da pump is so cool
da pump is now changing this japanese music scene as
da pump is my fave boys group
da pump is the gratuitous online stand

*laughs hysterically (altho muffled) at italicized entry*

in my state of fangirlishness, i proposed a new mood here. guess what it is. ^o^

randomness

[listening to] creep (acoustic) - radiohead

christmas is looming closer.

*pat is kinda broke right now*

i feel so untalented.

i didn't realize it before, but hyde's eyes are so intense. the kind that can have you writhing on the floor, begging for more of him.

*WHAT THE HELL?! where did that come from? >_>;;*

i got a pic from a japanese chemistry fansite. it was a doodle of them and dochin's got bug eyes. xDxD and kaname was just a head covered with a hat, no eyes or anything. it felt good to laugh.

just recently got into da pump (again). issa looked so *cute* and *bishie* way back in 1999. just like dochin. but then he had to shave of all his wonderful wonderful hair, grow a moustache and similar ugly hair on face, wear an ugly black suit, and frown at the camera. hmm, kinda like dochin, only he doesn't have the facial hair. u_u;;

it's actually nice being a fangirl. there's so much dogged devotion that it's surprising where fangirls could've drawn their willpower. a non-fangirl just has to wonder why they do it. *thinks of self way back when, before nintendo and anime and chemistry ever entered the scene* it takes a lot of time, effort, and leads to a lot of frustration. and i like it. ~_~

*remembers nori's comments about how chemistry songs sound alike*

like i said, he does have a point. after all, the thrust of their music is pop/r&b. but there's actually a lot of variation, in the tempos, arrangements, remixes and such. i won't elaborate...

*random fangirl moment* kyaaaa, cute dochin pics which i can't save into my own pc because the webmaster disabled the right-click option...;_; MEAN! SO MEAN! i was going to use them for icons. if and when i get to make them. sqeeee! autographed pic. dou-chan looking pensive (as always). mine~~~~@_@




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lessons learned

[listening to] a-ra-shi! - arashi

issa is ugly now. issa looks like a frickin' gangster. and he wasn't smiling! i can't see his perfect teeth! T_T oh, and ken now bears an eerie resemblance to the kawabata of old (moustache, angas expression).

Da Pump's new single, Circle of Life is out on 11/27.

take, a vocalist of SOS, is cute. but then again, he's 34 years old. O_o

dad left for san fernando today, leaving some cash for us to shop with. sta. lu still had a sale so it wasn't hard to find reasonably-priced stuff. anyway, we had enough left over from my (hehe) shopping binge to watch a movie. i wanted to watch the rundown, but my sister, having lived under a rock for so long, did not know about it and thus didn't want to watch it. she wanted to watch the boss's daughter, but it was rated r-13. we decided to sneak her in but she lost her nerve at the last minute. (kids.)

so we ended up wasting 120 bucks on the house of 1000 corpses. it was also r-13, but the woman at the counter was practically sleeping so it was easy to one-up her. i learned some valuable lessons from this movie.

1. sta. lu has two sets of cinemas -- 7(?) are in the old building, and the rest are in the new building. there is a distinction between the movies playing in the two sets. old:
B-movies
expected non-earners
unheard-of movies
foreign movies
movies in the nth (n>approx.2) week of showing
crappy movies (such as the house of the 1000 corpses).

new: big earners
new releases
hollywood films
generally alright movies.

2. a movie involving a psychotic, squeaky-voiced blonde cheerleader is more often than not, crap.

3. a movie which also has said cheerleader's family turns out worse than expected.

4. a movie with a character named dr. satan is usually crap.

5. a movie that has a crazy, fat old guy dressed as a clown as a principal character is usually (you guessed it right!) CRAP.

6. a movie written and directed by someone named rob zombie should be avoided at all costs.

7. you should start having a bad feeling about a movie when you don't recognize any of the names when the cast list flashes on the screen.

8. if you entered the movie theater when a screening of the movie has just ended, and someone in the theater shouts Ang panget!, he's probably right.

incidentally, rob zombie did some work on the twisted metal (II, i think, but i'm not sure) soundtrack. where did you go wrong, rob? what have you brought down upon hapless masses all over the world?

lalala

[listening to] astrosexy - m-flo loves chemistry

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mmm mmm. *nods at janine*

haha. go marlins! am tired of the yankees hogging the spotlight. altho, truth be told, matsui is really something. "godzilla", indeed.

i'm currently on a mad rampage, downloading all the m-flo songs i manage to find on kazaa. i've always thought of dance-y music as kitschy (*runs away from the outraged fans*), but astrosexy is great. it could be that i'm just biased, since it has chemistry. ehehe.

will be getting class cards next week. whatta downer. i expect a gwa of 1.9something. maaaaaan. T_T

anyway, i just remembered. while we were in sta. lu, i saw this guy wearing a mariners jersey. at first i was like, whoa, why is the print green?O_o so i was staring at him, waiting for him to pass by so i could see the back.

and then, i saw it. THE number.

51.

i had a wild urge to tear that jersey off his back.

dad may be right!

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(Christian) and Pandora (Greek).
The Unicorn is associated with the concept of
innocence, the number 3, and the element of
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Her sign is the twilight sun.

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individual. You are drawn to new things and
become fascinated with ideas you've never come
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like pandora, huh? after learning my little accident with a water pipe in the boarding house, my dad said i was going to destroy the world. so there might be something to that. hmm.

went to sta. lu with kim today. went grocery shopping, and bought kim an outfit - a dress (haha! my bugoy sister's hormones are finally acting up!XD) and a pair of cute sandals. all for the low low price of P348! go me. didn't get anything for myself tho, only a ratty secondhand copy of hamlet. i thought it's about high time i attempted to tackle good ol' will.

to do during my free time: decipher these

[listening to] deep inside of you - third eye blind

Undeciphered writing systems
The writing systems listed below have yet to be deciphered or have only been partially deciphered. In some cases the writing systems have been deciphered but the languages they were used to write remain a mystery.

Vinča / Old European
A collection of symbols found on many of the artefacts dating from between 6,000 to 4,500 BC excavated from sites in south-east Europe, in particular from Vinča near Belgrade. There is no agreement on whether these symbols are a writing system.
Further details

Indus/Harappa script
This script was first used in the Indus valley of India in about 3,500 BC. Neither the script nor the language it was used to write are known, however Asko Parpola of the University of Helsinki in Finland claims to have partially deciphered the script and believes it probably respresents a Dravidian language.
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Proto-Elamite
An script which first appear in about 2900 BC in the kingdom of Suse in south-western Persia (modern Iran). It has yet to be deciphered and the language it represents in unknown.
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Old Elamite
A partially deciphered syllabic script used between about 2250 and 2220 BC in the kingdom of Suse in south-western Persia (modern Iran). It was named after Elam, the capital of Suse.
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Linear A
A script used between about 1800 and 1450 BC on Crete. Linear A is possibly related to Linear B but the language it was used to write is not known.
Further details

Phaistos Disk
The Phaistos Disk was found in the Minoan Palace of Phaistos on Crete in 1908 and is thought to date from the 17th century BC. On it is inscribed an unknown script and there are many theories about the language it represeents and what it means. No other evidence of this script has been found.
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Etruscan
The Etruscan alphabet probably developed from the Greek alphabet and was used by Greek colonists in Italy from the middle of the 6th century BC until about the 1st century AD. The Etruscan alphabet has been deciphered but the Etruscan language remains largely a mystery.
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Meroïtic
The Meroïtic script was used to write Meroïtic, an extinct language that was spoken in the Nile valley and northern Sudan until about the 4th century AD. The script has been deciphered but the language is was used to write is not known.
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Voynich Manuscript
The Voynich Manuscript is named after Wilfrid M. Voynich, an antiquarian book dealer who acquired it in 1912. It is lavishly illustrated manuscript codex of 234 pages, written in an unknown script. One theory is that is was written sometime during the 13th century by a Franciscan friar, Roger Bacon (1214-1294). Many attempts have been made to decipher the text but none have succeeded.
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Rongo Rongo
A script once used on Easter Island until the 1860s, after which knowledge of the script was lost. The language it represents is Rapa Nui, the Polynesian language spoken on Easter Island.
Further details

Codex Seraphinianus
The Codex Seraphinianus was created by Italian artist Luigi Serafini during the late 1970s. It appears to be an encyclopedia of an alien world containing many weird and wonderful illustrations together with explanatory text written in a made-up alphabet. Many people have attempted to decipher the text but none have succeeded.
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being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up

[listening to] in this diary - the ataris

why is it that when we look back at the past, we view it through rose-colored glasses? the bad tends to be overlooked, and we rhapsodize over the best memories. at least that's how it is for me.

see, this is why i need to get busy. i'm turning all introspective. hmmm, i could study jap tomorrow. yosha.

[RANT]dedicated to X[/RANT]

[RANT]
i'm beginning to think my friendster testimonials (i mean the ones people made about me) aren't, well, real. i get described in these glowing terms. it's what they remember, perhaps, and not what's true now. because i don't like myself very much right now, and i'm not sure when that's going to change.

speaking of testimonials, i re-read the ones i made for my friends, and they...suck. it's really hard to capture the quintessence of a person in a few words. and testimonials highlight the good about a person, i know, but what if, say, being evil is an integral part of that person, and helps make him/her unique?

another bad thing (for me anyway) is when someone has made an especially gushy testimonial about you and you're supposed to return the favor. it's not explicitly stated at first. then the person messages later on, casually bringing up the topic of testimonials, and there you go. so you stare at the screen blankly for a long time, working on a testimonial which will prolly end up just as flowery and insincere as what was written for you.

X is the epitome of girl power. This charming girl has everything you could ask for. She's been my friend for n years, and we're still going strong. She's a joker, but she knows how to be serious when needed. You won't regret meeting X.

when you actually mean

X is a virtual stranger to me. I have never liked her when she was my classmate, and I sure as hell don't like her now. It was because of her and her ilk that I was glad to leave my so-called alma mater. I don't know why she said we've been friends since whenever, because she has never been my friend. She is a vain, power-hungry, self-centered, insensitive, backstabbing cow. Don't bother listening when she tries to crack a joke, because chances are it's at your expense, and it is almost sure to be unfunny. A friendly piece of advice: stay away from X.

of course i'm not saying this applies to all the testimonials i've written. i actually mean what i write 97% of the time.
[/RANT]

i've removed the guestbook (nobody signs anyway T_T) and added a comments system, courtesy of blogspeak.

the absolute last.

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hehe. i'm not surprised. but hey, i'm not taking anything too far.O_O

attack of the clones, part II

i just couldn't get over it.XD

they look bad?
...they probably look worse.

dochin and kawabata prolly just got caught in a bad mood. O_O this is why they get called shinkoku no chemistry (serious chemistry).

that's it, i need to get a life.

late, late nights

for 4 days straight, i've been sleeping at 1 and waking up at 12. whoo.O_O

just got my hands on viewtiful joe. now i see what all the fuss is about.^^ the hero of the game is joe, a regular guy. one day he's at the movies with his cute, if whiny, girlfriend sylvia. joe is engrossed in the movie, as it stars his favorite superhero, captain blue. but sylvia just wants to make out. (go girl. XDXD) while joe is fending off the whining sylvia, she gets grabbed by captain blue's nemesis, straight from the movie screen. joe takes on the mantle of captain blue to save his girlfriend. henshin a go go, baby!

mmm. just read about some other p2p file-sharing apps, and it seems that most of them is powered by ads (understandable). so i'm sticking to kazaa lite and winmx. i tried out imesh but the chemistry search results weren't as many as klite's. tsktsk.

i still think he's kinda cute, even without the makeup.

now that i have my sanity back

wait, where was i? oh. yes, the connection fouled up.

last night i watched pirates of the carribean and johnny depp is just superb (oh lookie, im GUSHING!XD) as capt. jack sparrow. *worships* he's cool, savvy?XD (i couldn't resist that.) orlando bloom was also there, as this blacksmith who's in love with keira knightley. orlando is no longer a pretty boy elf here. maybe he should consider just going blond. and keira here was a far cry from the tomboyish soccer freak in bend it like beckham. altho she is still as stick-thin as ever.

really wish i could've watched igneous. *bawls* miiiitch! oh well. heard from some friends present that the slugs were cozying up nearby. hmm. it doesn't really matter anymore. i just want to be friends, with the ex anyway. the other slug can just go get her brains bashed out. ^_^ but i guess the whole thing's really awkward. i miss the talks, and the goofing off...you know. hah. it's his loss.

so, am now a newly-inducted tk member. oh, and i was the first to greet cpmk on his birthday. not that it'd matter a lot to him, but you know.;p maaan, he just smells really nice. is it axe, i wonder?O_O and his hands are among the best i've ever seen or felt. top marks, better than sir vlad's.*_*

ooookay, that was...weird. i'll stop now.

AAAAGGGH. connection screwed up and i wasn't able to save my post.

*curses*

i'm going to update later. it's just so...RRRAAAAAWR.

uuugh. chem 16 classcards are out. i just know it's a frickin' 2.25 (or worse...please God no).

:(

however, it's the tk induction tomorrow. i'll try to enjoy myself despite the nagging feeling that my grades are just...horrible.

i missed sugarfree...again. my dad didn't allow me to go to the igneous, the concert. how am i ever going to meet mitch and the others and gush about how much i can realte to their music? haha. well, i'm not really that much of a groupie. :p but i didn't get to be there with steph. huhu.

p.s. new layout! kawaii, deshou?^^ oh, and i removed the tagboard. but there's a guestbook now, so sign when you can.^^

uurgh. i've been trying to avoid blogging because i'm a coward. i don't really want to be alone with just my thoughts again, because i'll just feel like a miserable failure.
there's my grades, for one. i just got my math 17 grade and it was a miserable 2.25. woooow. hanep. plus i didn't get exempted from the chem 16 finals, so my current standing is a 2.25. (i missed exemption by 13 points. :O) i so screwed up the second long test, partly because of the fact that i was attacked by a reaally bad case of the colds as the exam started. i didn't even have tissue with me. i was lost in a haze of snot and Lewis structures.>_< oh, i suck.
what worries me is that i may not be able to maintain a dos average. yes, my GE grades are alright (i expect them to be around 1.5), except for socio 10. i am praying to get a dos, because if i don't, byebye oblation scholarship. apart from the fact that it would be a source of great shame to me personally, i don't want to disappoint my parents. they have enough problems as is, and i don't want to add to that.
but the thing is, i'm not stupid. that's what's annoying. i know i could've done so much better. :(
resolutions for next sem:
1. i will really, truly study. if i still have my scholarship, i will keep it. if not, i will still aim for having a dos average at least.
2. i will be a good tk member.
3. i will be friendlier to my classmates, even if they are total strangers to me.
4. i will practice time management and avoid getting sucked in by my extra-curricular activities too much.
5. i will not give in to peer pressure that often.
6. i will stop procrastinating and lazing around.
7. i will try to detach myself from using kazaa and friendster.
8. i will save money.
9. i will be less sarcastic.
10. i will take the Hapon 10-11 integrated class even if it's not credited as a GE, and excel.

ok, enough doom and gloom.
T_T

got ashita e kaeru pv. and tons of new pics. wai~~~
dochin really very cool. ahe. ahehehehe.

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janine just introduced me to Friendster. i am overwhelmed.
Who are all these people?!

uugh. i so screwed up the math finals. i really think i have a problem. it's like this physics long test we had in 2nd year high school about colors. everyone was saying it was the easiest topic ever, and i failed the frickin' exam.
oh well. after that we bought a gift for my debutante cousin and headed to the party. first off: it was so not what a coming-out party was supposed to be. there were tons of little (yes, i do mean little) kids. it was like a children's party. i remember thinking,ah, the wonders of unprotected sex.XDXD there were my cousin's friends, schoolmates, etc.
i saw my second cousin for the first time in, say, 6 years. woot. the last i remember, he was this snot-nosed brat who was even kinda ugly compared to his bishie older brother (who turned out to be gay. damn). he's this tall, dark, chiseled silent-type dude now. *_* and he's younger. YOUNGER, pat.
when we arrived, everyone was like, "PATRICIA! Ang tangkad/payat/ganda/dalaga mo na! May boyfriend ka na ba? Nasan ang daddy mo?,"
riiiight. half the time that came from complete strangers, i mean people i've met before but don't remember, so i just nodded and made small talk.
the spaghetti song is scary. it's like all the kids get brainwashed into dancing it when the song plays...O_O also there was this gay presenter who danced "whenever, wherever". freaky.

What Is Your Battle Cry?

Yea, verily: Who is that, prowling across the icy wasteland? It is Pat, hands clutching a sharpened screwdriver! And with a low howl, her voice cometh: "Brace yourself, oh human speck of dust! I carve into flesh with reckless abandon!!"

Find out! Enter username: Are you a girl, or a guy ?

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oooh. screwdriver. XD

What is your past life? How did you die? by whisperinghope
Name
Age
Way	Murdered by a good friend.
Past Life	Maths teacher.
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*gasp* by a good friend? (...wait, that's been done before. abi, get this knife you stuck on my back out, will you?)
even more *gasp*-worthy: me, a MATH TEACHER? O_O +_+ @_@ *shock and awe* XDXDXD

other random results of quizzes i've been taking when i should be studying for my math finals:

Morpheus


?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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You represent... hope.
You're quite a daydreamer and can be a hopeless
romantic. You enjoy being creative and don't
mind being alone at times. You have goals, and
know what you want in life... even if they are
a little far-fetched.


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meeeeen, it's so hot. as in stifling, stick-to-your-being hot. lazy hot. don't-study-math-and-just-blog/sleep/eat/watch TV hot. you get the idea.

yay! crs finally has chem 17. and by some weird (unjust? cruel?) twist of fate, i found out that "the brice equivalent only not as hunky" dude got the exact same sections. great. also signed up for cwts, altho i'm not sure what that's about. anything, anything to escape RO (yung MilSci ha. not the game).

last wednesday we worked on our socio project. all night. as if that wasn't sad enough, there had to be a brown-out (san nga ba nanggaling 'to? para ba 'tong bullshit na naging bwiset?). yes.
the project turned out all right, if i do say so myself. magbuhat ng sariling bangko. hehehe. it's about "the last mermaid", merrick. but oh, how we suffered for it. i even damaged something. XD but all of us had to go home early, so we couldn't present it in class. we went to Sir J's cubicle and he wasn't there, when we already agreed to meet him to present it. *sigh* Finding profs in this school can be so nerve-wracking.

the results of the tk application period has come out, and i made it to the induction. YATTA! go go go! ^______^

okay, enough with the victory dance. gotta study math.

janine: the iota's getting bigger.

Si Pat ay hindi marunong lumangoy. Ni minsan ay di niya pinangarap maging sirena, kahit tuwang-tuwa sya sa "The Little Mermaid" nung bata pa siya. Paborito nga pala niya dun si Sebastian.
Bukod sa pagsusulat ng kung anu-anong mga kwento, mahilig din si Pat kumanta. Di laging nasa tono, pero pwede na. Pagkatapos grumadweyt sa kursong Chemical Engineering (on time sana), nais ni Pat magtrabaho sa Japan, ang lupain ng mga hilaw na isda at mga pangalang mahirap bigkasin.
Isa sa mga hinahangaang awtor ni Pat ay si Prof. Randy David. Gusto nga sana niyang hingan ng autograph nung nakasalubong niya ito sa FC, kaso nahiya siya. ^_^;

Seer


The ULTIMATE personality test
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not so sure about this. O_O



secretly lang? XD

there is something very, very disturbing about hearing these schoolkids say "p*ke ng ina mo". also equally disturbing is to hear them laugh like hyenas. O_O

phew. i checked what i pre-enlisted. it's a good thing i got 3 physics lab classes. i got paranoid there for a minute. =p right now i'm in an internet cafe with a bunch of schoolboys ROing. *sigh* i kinda miss it, but...i am an accomplished self-controlled person. RIGHT! hahaha. XD

:x: name = pat
:x: piercings = 2 on the right ear, 1 on the left
:x: tattoos = nope
:x: height = 5'4 (?)
:x: shoe size = 8.5-9. AAAHHH! the shame! just call me bigfoot.XD
:x: hair color = brown
:x: siblings = 1 younger sister


LAST...
:x: movie you rented = just married (ok, so it was janine who rented it.)
:x: movie you bought = i don't buy movies. but the last dvd my dad bought was "the prince and the pauper". oldie b&w flick.
:x: song you listened to = la la la love song - toshinobu kubota ft. naomi campbell
:x: song that was stuck in your head = sweet soul revue - pizzicato five
:x: cd you bought = woot. let's see...sa wakas - sugarfree
:x: cd you listened to = burned cd
:x: person you've called = ceres
:x: person that's called you = ceres (exciting, is it not?XD)
:x: tv show you've watched = third rock from the sun
:x: person you were thinking of = the girl i sat across from in the jeep with the "french tip" nails


DO...
:x: you have a crush on someone = yes, unfortunately
:x: you wish you could live somewhere else = kyoto, tokyo, new zealand
:x: you think about suicide = i've thought about it once or twice, but never that seriously.
:x: you believe in online dating = no. lots of crazy people out there =p
:x: others find you attractive = hmm, i hope so X3
:x: you want more piercings = maybe another one on the right ear. hehe.
:x: you like cleaning = when the mood strikes me
:x: you like roller coasters = yes! whoo.^^
:x: you write in cursive or print = print


FOR OR AGAINST...
:x: long distance relationships = the romantic in me says 'for', the pessimist says 'against'
:x: using someone = against my morals but i do it sometimes >XD
:x: suicide = against. i value life too much
:x: killing people = ooh. some people are alive only 'cause it's illegal to kill them...heh.
:x: teenage smoking = not for smoking in general, but i can tolerate smokers
:x: driving drunk = this is like a stupid question, right?
:x: gay/lesbian relationships = definitely against those couples who flaunt it too mush. it's alright with me tho
:x: soap operas = somewhere in between =p


HAVE YOU...
:x: ever cried over a girl = not romantically, but yeah if you mean the failed friendship sort of thing
:x: ever cried over a boy = hell yes
:x: ever lied to someone = *southern belle voice* why, of course i wouldn't dare do that! not ever, mr. survey taker sir.
:x: ever been in a fist fight = does a catfight count?
:x: ever been arrested = nope


WHAT...
:x: shampoo do you use = glemo, suave green apple...mmm *^^*
:x: shoes do you wear = sneakers, mojos, tsinelas, those brown suede things that can go with almost any outfit
:x: are you scared of = loneliness


NUMBER...
:x: of times I have been in love? = really, truly in love? once
:x: of times I have had my heart broken? = once
:x: of hearts I have broken? = two? ehehe. it's not like i keep track of, er, stuff like this
:x: of girls I have kissed? = less than 10. all in a non-lesbo sort of way, mind you
:x: of boys I have kissed? = one
:x: of girls I've slept with? = oh, oodles and OODLES! XD
:x: of boys I've slept with? = none. and it will remain that way until i get married...if i do get married XP
:x: of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends? = a few
:x: of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? = all the time, in The Science Scholar, anyway
:x: of scars on my body? = i don't count
:x: of things in my past that I regret? = a few really big ones, and a few trivial things


DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...
:x: pretty - no
:x: funny - to people who get my sense of humor
:x: hot - no
:x: friendly - sometimes
:x: ugly - oh, i hope not =p
:x: lovable - i could be
:x: caring - ditto
:x: sweet - ditto
:x: dorky - yes XD


Favorite:
5 letter word: can't think. i suck.
actor/actress: ashton kutcher X3
Candy: choco baby
Cartoon: the simpsons, furuba
Cereal: extreme oreo-o's, honey stars
Chewing gum: spearmint spout
Color(s): blue, yellow, orange
Day of week: friday, saturday
Least fave day: sunday, monday
Flower: white roses. so sue me for being typical =p
Jello flavor: O_o
Jewelry: kaboodle earrings^^
Special skills/talents: writing(?), singing (haha)
Summer/Winter: winter...wala kasing snow dito...
Trampolines or swimming pools: trampolines!


|| Person who last.. ||
Slept in your bed: dad
Saw you cry: roman-sempai
Made you cry: never mind that X/
You went to the movies with: janine and ceres
Yelled at you: dad
Sent you an email: the folks at Got Laughs. yes, it's pathetic XP


|| Have you ever.. ||
Said "I love you" and meant it?: yup
Gone out in public in your pajamas: yup. it was great fun.^^
Kept a secret from everyone: yup
Cried during a movie: yup
Ever at anytime owned new kids on the block stuff: nope
Planned your week based on the TV Guide: nope O_O
Been on stage: yup
Been to New York: nope
Been to California: nope
Hawaii: nope
China: nope
Canada: nope
Europe: no
Asia: all my life =p
South America: nope
Australia: nope
What time is it now?: 3:44 PM
Apples or bananas? banana!
Blue or red? blue
Walmart or target? i don't really know these places. none of them here.
Spring or Fall? nope, no spring or fall her, either.
What are you gonna do after you finish this? finish my socio readings
What was the last meal you ate?: 2-piece burger steak in jollibee. sogbu^^
High school or college? college.
Are you bored? yes, otherwise i wouldn't be doing this
Last noise you heard? typing on keyboards
Last smell you sniffed? the orange twirl crunch at jollibee
Last time you went out of state/province? can't remember XP


|| Friendship/Love ||
Do you believe in love at first sight? um. kinda no
Do you want children one day & if so, how many? yes. around 2.
Most important thing to you in a friendship is: um, respect? that or trust.


|| Other Info ||
Criminal record?: nope, none that i know of XP
Do you speak any other languages? tagalog, a bit of japanese
Name some of your favorite things in your bedroom? pc, dvds
Thing you dislike about yourself the most: inferiority complex
Worst feeling in the world: fear
Whom you love: family, friends
Whom you miss: ragnar. there, i said it. T_T


|| You ||
Nickname(s): pat, tricia
Initials: pr
How old do you look? i was told 13 O_O
How old do you act? i was told 11 XD
Glasses/Contacts: nope
Braces: yup
Do you have any pets? a dog who constantly sniffs my butt, and a cactus fondly named "love child".
You get embarrassed: depends on my state of mind and the situation
What makes you happy? being with my friends
What upsets you? screwing up


|| Finish the sentence: ||
I Love to...live
I Miss...high school
I Wish...i could be an exchange student to japan maybe next year
I Hope...i don't lose my scholarship(s) in the years to come
I'm Annoyed by...overzealous, narrow-minded people
I Am...sleepy
I Want to Be...stress-free
I Would Never...take up swimming as a PE class
I'd Rather...listen to my mp3s at home
I Am Tired of...studying
I Will Always be...pat^^


|| Have you ever.. ||
Thought you were going to die: several times. once when i fell into this bed of glass and broken pot shards when i was 3, the other when i rolled (yes, rolled. there is no other word for it) down the stairs during high school because of a misstep.
Wanted to Run away: yup. did it once, when i was around 7. i even brought a big bag of chewing gum with me for food XP

what's with chest hair? seriously. other than it looks...icky. and why would women want to have their nails done "french tip"(thanks to janine for the name ^^;;)? i mean isn't it kinda freaky to see the tip of your nails ALL WHITE and perfectly made? strange, indeed.

how to not get sleep:

1. sleep all day
2. drink tons of coffee
3. browse for blog skins
4. obssess over finding the perfect blog skin
5. put up said blog skin, editing the blog template...
6. ...when someone calls, so it's byebye internet connection
7. rant to a friend about your misfortune
8. turn ranting session into full-fledged chika
9. connect to the net again
10. browse random blogs
11. comment on random blogs
12. procrastinate on the 3 papers due tomorrow (i mean later)
13. procrastinate further by reorganizing your mp3s
14. make it worse by rearranging all your hard disk files
15. blog.

hmm, so whaddya think about the new look? kawaii, deshou?^^ got it here. well, what are you waiting for?! go check it out.^^

uugh. today is not my day. first there's the "oh-the-user-goes-offline-and-never-returns-when-you-only-have-a-little-bit-over-500kb-to-download" curse i seem to be afflicted with in kazaa. then there's the fact that i bought a perfectly decent dress to wear for my cousin's debut, and my father says it looks like a duster (daster?). T_T it isn't my usual style (think baby blue, with, uh, some ruffle things in front >_>) but i thought -- think -- it's alright, even kinda cute. i wanted to buy one exactly like claine's, but that would pose difficulties on both of us. the same design was also in this light olive green color, but since the boobs part was ribbed, it made me look unusually well-endowed.O_o there was another black dress but this time, it was loose in the chest area. excuse me for not having larger assets, gozum.=p anyway, the dress was marked down by 100 bucks, so it's just 299. decent enough. lastly there's the fact that i'm procrastinating instead of doing the papers i ought to type. oh well.^^;;

You have a goodbye kiss- much passion and longing,
but never lasting.


What kind of kiss are you?
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obviously a kiss cannot go on forever. one can't exchange saliva with another member of his/her species indefinitely. altho the sweetest kisses don't usually involve...err...*coughcough*.


You're the smirk,a frown-smile hybrid that's a
little bit cocky and usually associated with
evil or arrogant,but attractive people.You
probably just don't give a damn,but it's
everyone else's fault if you don't because
you're too awesome to have any real faults.


What Kind of Smile are You?
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damn, i'm cool. *smirks* XP

great. i slept through the nhk show again. i wonder who they featured.

PC wallpaper: dochin staring out into the distance, looking pensive.
dad sees wallpaper, approaches PC.
*makes hacking and slashing motions at pc screen* hyaaah! hyaah! (also with sword sfx)
ang hilig-hilig mo sa hapon, those people killed thousands nung ww2! alam mo ba yung nanking massacre? hanapin mo yun sa internet.

XDXDXD

"Once the realization is accepted that even between the closest human beings infinite distances continue, a wonderful living side by side can grow, if they succeed in loving the distance between them which makes it possible for each to see the other whole against the sky."
~Rainer Maria Rilke

So Impossible - Dashboard Confessional

So she says
"Everyone's going to the party,
won't you come if I come
with a friend for your friend?
I'd be so pleased to see you
out of the classroom wearing the smile that I'll bring you.
I was hoping to learn a few things
Do you do you like dishing the dirt
on the whole class &
talking the big smack &
playing the fool &
wearing all of the latest fashions
or bucking the new trends
wearing your old threads.
If you like coffee in the evening
These are a few things that I'd like to know
that I'd like to know.."

So I say...
"I've been scheduled to work but I'll call in
and my friend isn't busy
he'd be happy to join me
and maybe my friend
and your friend
will hit it off or maybe we will?"

I'm dying to know
do you do you like dreaming of things
so impossible or only the practical
or ever the wild or waiting through all your bad bad days
just to end them with
someone you care about
but do you like making out
and long drives and brown eyes
and guys that just
don't quite fit in
yeah do you like them
So yes, I'll see you there.

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Fifth Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Very Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	Very Low
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	High
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Very High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)	Moderate
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Very High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Low

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test

well, well. doom on me. tell me something i don't know.

the night was young
the stars were out
and there we were
dancing in the dark

for some reason my mind wandered to a certain older dude whose hair has liberal sprinkles of white. i get hit really hard by this sort of...feeling. altho of course i'm aware there is totally, totally no way he'll ever see me as anything more than a minion. or friend. the thing is, i always seem to alienate the people i like (romantically) most. it's similar to ceres' commitment phobia, only worse. because i don't intend to do it, it just happens. the wrong words come out, the wrong signals are sent...geez. maybe it's like the martian rubber band. i need to pull away, then spring back to feel the attraction. XP

you held out your hand
i gave you my heart
the night has ended
now we must part

have finally finished the hassle known as online pre-enlistment. still no chem 17. damnit.

sidetracked nori yesterday before socio class. he came from his anthro class. got a picture of him! wai.^^ so i looked like a total dork in the pic, but what the hell. we used my phone's camera. technology is really a great thing. anyway, we talked about various random stuff. he was surprised to know that i like chemistry. he was like (in that cute accented way of speaking tagalog he has), "di ba pare-parehas lang ang tunog ng kanta nila?" well...not all of them, it's just that they tend to stick to a tried-and-tested formula of pop/r&b. they're not just very adventurous, i suppose, and i don't think they have a lot of creative freedom except for one or two solo songs each of them wrote themselves and sang on their albums.

nori's favorite band is mr. children. i know nothing about them except that they've been in the music industry for a long time now. i also mentioned s.o.s, and he hasn't heard of them. -_-;; he also knows my favorite show on nhk, hahaha. it's on later, yeah.

still haven't started on socio project with janine and ceres. also have around 5 papers to work on. =p but today is slack off day. i'll be working tomorrow.

so close is v. cool. the chicks there make charlie's angels look like a bunch of wimps. it's like the angels are all flash and no substance, while they are savvy personified. the korean guy from endless love is also in the cast, according to my aunt. he's the love interest of the dead sister.

...whoops, spoiler. me and my big mouth. XD

on the other end of the spectrum is the trailer for this stupid flick, utang ng ama. crappy actors + inane plot + slapstick comedy + buxom bimbo = stupid movie. right, joey. as if the whole scandal with kris wasn't bad enough for your career. and he's a politician. which gives you an idea of the great minds running this country.

dochin and kawabata's voices really improve over time. kimi wo sagashiteta ~new jersey united~ is much better than the original. also dochin's voice seems to have grown deeper, as in bright lights.

just a bit of useless information.^^

am at home, finally.^^ i got an email from my buddy. she's in soka university right now. anyway, she's doing fine there, she says. her kanji teacher is funny, i remember her saying.

anyway, am still pre-enlisting. it's really a bitch.

what would it be like falling into infinity? just an endless spiral, maybe of the cold, of memories. but then again, it could be exhilarating. there would be nothingness, and it would never end.

hollow years - dream theater
He’s just the kind of man
You hear about
Who leaves his family for
An easy out
They never saw the signs
He never said a word
He couldn’t take another day

Carry me to the shoreline
Bury me in the sand
Walk me across the water
In the writing of a tired hand
You’ll see the message getting clearer
And maybe you’ll understand

Once the stone
You’re crawling under
(once the stone)
Is lifted off your shoulders
(lifted off)
Once the cloud that’s raining
Over your head disappears
The noise that you’ll hear
Is the crashing down of hollow years

She’s not the kind of girl
You hear about
She’ll never want another
She’ll never be without
She’ll give you all the signs
She’ll tell you everything
Then turn around and walk away

Carry me to the shoreline
Bury me in the sand
(into the waves)
Walk me across the water
In the echoes of a tired voice
You’ll hear the message getting clearer
And maybe you’ll have no choice

Once the stone
You’re crawling under
(once the stone)
Is lifted off your shoulders
(lifted off)
Once the cloud that’s raining
Over your head disappears
The noise that you’ll hear
Is the crashing down of hollow years

Carry me to the shoreline
Bury me in the sand
(into the waves)
Walk me across the water
And maybe you’ll understand

Once the stone
You’re crawling under
Is lifted off your shoulders
Once the cloud that’s raining
Over your head disappears
The noise that you’ll hear
Is the crashing down
(crashing down, crashing down, crashing down)
Crashing down of hollow years

Once the stone
You’re crawling under