Jellyfished

Somebody commented that I used to be "at a higher level" academics-wise. Didn't expect this offhand comment would sting, but it did.

So I'm just sloshing through my majors, and I dropped onse. Fine. But let me make my excuses first. I took 122 not because it would change the fact that I'm delayed, but because I wanted to be classmates with my actual batchmates (despite the realization that it means 4 majors next sem, which will probably kill me) for mainly social and non-academic reasons. I dropped onse because I'd rather not get a 5, perfectly understandable since I've never failed a subject before.

I'm not even going to try the whole "I was in Japan for a year and returned brain-dead" explanation.

The bottom line is, yes, I may be mediocre (academically). [But that was even before I left.] And you don't get to judge me for it, except maybe if you're my parents, or professors, or prospective employers. Capisce?

flashes in the pan

Ugh, 197. Not too bad but it wasn't great.

I fear for the (society that the) mediocre chemical engineer I might end up being in the future (will serve).

I wonder who the excluded friend is. (It can't be me, right?)

I'm not sure what this is, but I'm happy when you're here. And I care when you aren't here, except maybe when he's here. Which kind of doesn't make sense and is kind of selfish.

I miss playing videogames.

Onse is gone! Goooone!

Glad to be with some of the coolest people in the planet. :)

Somebody watch The Promise with me. :P

The amazing new presentation software (and Gids' brainchild), FlashPoint! XD

A month to go. Go, go, go.

D R O P

So there. Am dropping onse officially tomorrow. Have never dropped a subject before, because a) there was never any need and b) I never was the give-up-easily type [my deep and long-standing thing for ... should be some sort of proof]. This time, I'd rather cut my losses and fight another day (summer, ugh).

Have been having !fun! for the past couple of days, barring the 122 takehome exam hovering like a cloud (Clown!) over my head. Last night increased my "alcohol content" with some very dear friends, and also released methane (XD) from shock of seeing Heather Graham's bare boob in Killing Me Softly. (Jerome has threatened me that he will never let me forget this.)

Today was also a great, if academically counter-productive day. Lunched with Paula, whom we haven't talked to in ages, then watched Music and Lyrics. Hmm. Typical rom-com fare, nothing life-changing. Hugh Grant still has this whole nonchalant adorable British thing down pat. He should consider other genres. Like thrillers, or hard drama. If he pulls it off, I'd say he's brilliant.

If I have learned anything from this movie, apart from one should always look cute and appealing even if one is haunted by some emotional ghost, and the lesson that killing other's people's plants can help you get a love life, it's that I am a lyricist! A lyricist, I tell you.

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I wish you believed in yourself more. So many people do. And if you don't think you can manage it, that's like sealing your fate and saying that you CAN'T. :(

Back to the desert

That's what my mom will be in a couple of days. She leaves on Thursday so I have to go home on Wednesday for our last dinner together for maybe a year. Oh well. For the first time I actually feel really, truly, gut-wrenchingly sad that she'll be gone. :( It's so comforting to have her around pala. We finally get each other, so there was no major fight or dramatic crap. And we poke fun at my dad together, which is cool. Hehe.

Our 131 long exam is moved to ??? and Sir T moved the deadline for the 122 thingy to next week. Whew. I MUST learn this whole Excel thing. I mean, I only used it for tables and linear regression. And now I find out you can build a city using Excel (OK, so this is an exaggeration). What else...197, I think I did decently on the exam. Not great, but enough to pull up my grade (I hope). It's an elective but I'm hoping for a 2. That should tell you something about my first exam. Onse, as usual, is pain. I studied centroids, but just in 2D, and the lab turns out to be integration. Brilliant. Here's to my first to-drop subject ever, although people tell me I should not lose hope and battle it to the bitter end, where either a 3 or 5 await.

I miss having a GE. I actually miss wandering AS wearing my ID, having my neurons stimulated by a non-Engg topic, having a non-Engg dude to daydream about in class, browsing the book stalls in the AS Walk and (surprisingly) eating at CASAA. Hmm.

Sykes phoned me last week about my OJT application. Apparently the HR person wanted to endorse me to her boss, which is nice. I didn't pass an actual resume, just filled out the forms and chatted with the booth person. She was asking me when I could start, and I was all like, "Uh. When classes end. March." She said she was going to have to check with her boss, which means...what? A no? It's been 3 days excluding the weekend, and she hasn't called back.

Next week is going to be crazy. And not just because there's Valentine's Day. (Which is a total commercialization of love, and I say this not just because I'm single. Or not. :P)