nuninuninu.

[listening to] nothing

here i am, procrastinating. again. someone should whack me with a mallet everytime i go online to avoid doing the things i have to do.

...that's called evading responsibility.

***

saddam. erap. suharto.
whenever i think of all the problems they've caused, and the mark they've made on history, one thing comes to my mind:

sniper rifle.

it would've been easier to hire a hitman to kill the abovementioned (erap especially) than deal with all the crap they left behind. it'd be morally wrong, of course. if someone gave me a gun and the perfect opportunity to do it, i wouldn't. i couldn't. so sue me.

***

why do i blog? good question, vim. maybe it's because i'm an attention whore.=p i'm kidding. it's a way for me to release stress. i dump all the good/bad/ugly in this blog. altho it doesn't solve my problems, i feel like i've actually taken a step to solve it by blogging. it's similar to when i do something stupid and tell my dad; i feel reassured that it'll be solved somehow because my dad's an evil genius. haha.

and it's good practice with html, and a way for me to meet fellow chemistry fangirls around the world.xD there could be a million other reasons, but let's not get into that.

i blog because i want to.^^

talk about bumpers.

[listening to] listen - stonefree

random thought #0YDn

[listening to] nothing

i really, really want to be a chemistry club fan member. but i don't know much nihongo.;_; so what i really need is a merutomo who's japanese, is fluent in english, is a dochin fangirl too, and is someone i'll click with.

*sigh*

***

i clicked on a random blog link from someone who commented on an acquaintance's LJ and i got into some site called "suck and f*ck". my brain isn't working well due to sleep deprivation.O_O

***

was unproductive today. tried to work on tc7 but dochin's sweet, sweet voice lured me away. ah well. acads first, pat. >_<

***

hrrm. i read somewhere that the song YMCA is actually a reference to gay love. and to think they played it all the time in those dances we had in high school.xD

Young man, there's a place you can go
I said young man, when you're short on your dough
You can stay there, and I'm sure you will find
Many ways to have a good time

It's fun to stay at the YMCA
They have everything for young men to enjoy
You can hang out with all the boys

***

JANUARY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized (?!). Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tense. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

that's me alright.^^;

EDIT: omg. chemistry and wang leehom in one concert, and I WASN'T THERE. *cries*
with DOST still looming over my shoulders, no way i can get a passport in say, 10 years.

CHEMISTRY & Mika Nakashima will be performing @ "2003 Asia Superstar Anti-Piracy Concert" (Sept/29/2003)
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CHEMISTRY & Mika Nakashima will be appearing as representatives of Japan @ "2003 Asia Superstar Anti-Piracy Concert", which will be held on November 15, at Shanghai Stadium!
This event is held to exterminate piracy CDs, and artists from East Asia like Faye Wong (HK) and Wang Leehom (TW) will be participating also!

EDITEDIT: just read another article about it from j-net, and turns out jay chou, karen mok and some others were there too. and chemistry and mika nakashima sang a song in MANDARIN. O_o

mou, i wanna hear.-_-

***

that's it. i am so going to write the letter for "willful abandonment" next weekend.

loss.

[listening to] the voices in my head O_o

i just deleted 62 MB of love known as the "pieces of a dream" PV from our hard disk.

why? why'd i do it? i had gigs to spare!;_;

good thing i have the dvd.

***

has anyone started christmas shopping yet?^_^

better than pacquiao

[listening to] call and answer - dave matthews band

at least that's how i felt for a fleeting moment after punching *him* in the face this afternoon, at as 101.

it all started with a shirt and a jersey that needed to be returned to their respective owners. heck, there was no *need*, really. both owners just wanted to rid themselves of each other's traces in their systems, so it had to be done. and one of them, having been badly scarred and dealt ego-butchering blows by the other, had a secret fantasy of punching the other in the nose. it would be perfect: they'd talk, he'd turn, she'd smile, then WHAM.

but, it was just one of those little things you envision in your mind but don't actually do, like running over your money-grubbing boardinghouse manager's disgusting progeny with a 12-wheeler. or so i thought.^_^

what they said:

1. omg talaga? *pregnant pause* ...don't chicken out.

2. practice nga. aim at this. *holds out hand, i punch and miss* HAHAHA! ang bano ni pat.xD

3. basta dapat yung range mo mas malaki sa distance between ninyo para di ka mag-miss.
pat: pano, ganito? *punches*
*twists pat's arm, nearly punches back*
*automatic filecase-thwacking self-defense mechanism activates*

conclusion: friends nearly kill each other because of characteristic violence and a "practice fight".

the actual scene wasn't as dramatic, tho. while waiting for him to show up at said venue, my palms were sweating. so i wiped them on his jersey. disgusting, i know, but he left slug entrails all over my stuff!xD anyway, toys, ce and yuki were there to cheer me on (or more likely, to see if i'd actually do it O_o).

*arrives late (excused because of sluggishness)* gives shirt
*gives jersey*
2:30 pa class ko e. ikaw ba, wala ka ng class?
um, 2:30 pa. uy [name], ano...
*looks up* ano?
ano...twegt;t50r2895 *random stuttering while trying to gauge whether my range was longer than the distance between us*
what?
*more random stuttering* could you do me a favor? *steps a wee bit closer* stand still.
*punches*
owww...araaay...what was that for?


idiot.

***

watched chemistry perform "your name never gone" in pop jam last sunday. when they arrived onstage, i was screaming (like all the other fangirls in there). my dad woke up from his nap and called me jologs. hmmph. next week da pump will perform. i'm going to see my other bishie, issa.X3

gobbledygook. what chem lab rep?x_X

[listening to] wanna be your girlfriend - asuka hiroi

Rank the following anime in order, from COULDN'T LIVE WITHOUT to COULDN'T CARE LESS. To add value to this process, you must also add four titles to the list, and remove four titles from the list, before passing the list on (including these instructions). Because, let's face it, anime is a little harder to get one's hands on than movies, and a lot more obscure to boot.

removed:
get backers
hikaru no go
prince of tennis
matantei loki ragnarok

added:
excel saga
noir
read or die
furikuri

final list:

fruits basket
rurouni kenshin
excel saga
noir
evangelion
escaflowne
read or die
furikuri
inuyasha
sailor moon


I did it in 45 seconds.
I deserved a C!!
Take the How Dexterous Are You? Quiz!!

LOL.xD

the verdict

[listening to] now or never - chemistry meets m-flo

astrosexy OWNS now or never.

Cu + Zn = wtf?*&!%$*

[listening to] shiroi tenshi ga oritekuru - rag fair

ooh, i like this song. very christmas-y.^^ but still no now or never mp3. *bawls*
EDIT: i got it! i got it! ohoho!^_____________^

i hate the friggin' chem 17 lab rep. makes me feel like an idiot. doesn't help that i have a genius for a classmate/almost lab partner.>_<

he has blue-gray eyes. no, really.

[listening to] mouse clicks

i like adam lamberg. i think he's good as gordo, that witty and loyal redeemer of lizzie maguire. i like his hair, and he has intense eyes, the type that'll wring the truth out of you. so yeah, he's kinda cute.

but c'mon, who's going to join a group called "adam lamberg 4 girls"?

***

as you may have noticed from the utter, ridiculous fangirly-ness of my past entries, i don't have a very interesting life right now. or maybe ever. i think i'm just too lazy to blog, or even just plain write something (unless it's an academic requirement). it's kind of pathetic, actually. my passions in life right now, aside from trying to survive this sem unscathed, are being dochin's love slave and accumulating as many jpop mp3s as my puny dial-up connection allows in the shortest space of time.

***

hey toys and ish, omedetou on being full-fledged k e m ers.^_^ i really am interested in applying, but this little aberration in me is protesting. it's the nonconformist in me, i suppose. it's like a bandwagon that i'm wary of joining. and ce is applying. 2 years of being ceresandpat and patandceres and being in each other's shadows is enough for both of us. and org + pat + ceres doesn't seem to be a good combination.

***

napaisip ako sa isang entry ni gela. matutupad nga kaya ang mga pangarap ko? ano nga ba ang mga pangarap ko? makakapunta kaya ako sa japan, kahit ang magawa ko lang sa mga plano kong gawin dun ay mapanood ang chemistry live? o nakatakda ba kong magdusa sa isang kursong di naman hiyang sa 'kin?

dati gusto ko din maging manunulat. pero wala, olats e. alam ko kung ano ang gusto ko, pero di talaga feasible yun sa ngayon.

pakiramdam ko napili ko na talaga ang landas ko. naisip ko tuloy, sana di na lang ako nag-pisay. mas masaya kaya ako?

i am an mp3 whore.

[listening to] the clip of now or never (by chemistry) for the nth time

i couldn't connect to soulseek, thus i have no mp3 of this. YET.

*goes berserk*

oh, and if any other chemistry (or rather, dochin) fangirls out there, check out jenn's blog. she has a yummy layout.^^

marry me, dochin.

[listening to] more than words - chemistry

gaaaaah, he rules. so lovely.*_*

anyway, i whiled away the weekend downloading chemi mpegs and mp3s. i love the internet. i hate our sluggish dial-up connection. but in the end i got the videos and their acoustic tour mp3s, so i'm happy happy happy.^_____^

oh, and it's his birthday tomorrow. somebody fly me to wherever he is so i can worship and fawn over him, with the occasional kiss thrown in greet him. hehehe.

i used this on friendster, at may nagwapuhan sakin. aba.




didn't get to review the loads of books i brought home tho. not a very good start to my supposed "overachiever mode" sem. ah, well. too giddy to do anything about it for now. will study after going to mass.

derive my func, pare.

[listening to] your name never gone - chemistry

kunwari hindi ako chem eng'g, at wala akong obligasyon sa gobyerno at bansa ko. pwede kong kunin ang kahit anong kursong piliin ko.

magagamit ko ba ang differentiation at integration sa linguistics?

tamad lang talaga ako.

***
(aba, tagalog. hmm.)

tatakbo raw si fpj, di ba?

...wala na talaga. di ko kaya ang optimism ni sir jleg sa ganito.

***
171.1 MB. mahigit 16 hours.

dahil hindi ko nalaman ang chemistry ng mas maaga.
dahil hindi ako nakapunta -- at makakapunta in the foreseeable future -- sa japan.
dahil wala akong passport.
dahil dial-up lang ang connection namin.

(yun nga pala yung mp3 ng 2nd tour nila.)

***
uy. nakapasok na ko sa r18 movie. mukha na kong 18! wow.

***


maniniwala ka bang 30+ na sya? O_o buti na lang di ako laruku groupie.

EDIT: ano ba yan, tinitigan ko pa kasi nang matagal. nagiging kamukha na tuloy nya si vhong navarro.

over.

[listening to] random tv sounds (again)

SILA NA. the good-smelling dude and her.

*sigh*

the game hasn't even started and once again, i've lost. maybe i should just lighten up and stop taking crap like this seriously.

will update on the weekend. ja.

dual shock analog controller

[listening to] nothing

agathokakological.
that is the only word that can describe this day.
it was like a wave that fluctuated madly. but in the end, i suppose it sucked.

stage 1: equilibrium

i arrived at eng'g early, around 6 am. dad suggested i head to kalai first for some company, but ish wasn't there yet so i went back to eng'g. anyway, there was a sign-up sheet and i was third. which is a good thing.

stage 2: going down, down

the whole process was supposed to start at 8, but no...10 am arrived and we were still waiting for those accursed form 5As. it was hot, sticky, and generally unpleasant. not to mention that while we were hanging out by the stairs, some dork with newly-shaved legs [*cough*ex*cough*] approached us and asked when i wanted my shirt back. he came at a bad time because we were expounding on how to best wax *her* face.xD

ish: ooh, look at his legs.
me: where are the hairy legs? crap, i just know it. she made him shave them.
i: shave? hindi wax? ...teka, nagwa-wax pa ba si [girl]?
m: ewan. baka.
i: pwede kaya i-wax ang nose hairs?
m: yeee. ay shocks, baka pwede.
i: parang sa "the hot chick".
m: o kaya punuin natin ng wax ung nostrils nya tapos patigasin natin. tapos hilain...

and on it went, until he approached us with this too-bright smile plastered on his face. we talked for a bit, mainly about my shirt, and i asked him if he was ok. he deliberately misunderstood the question and uttered some stupid statement about how lots of people were lining up.

stage 3: a sudden rush of euphoria

we decided to go back to the department and ask if we lose our slots when we leave. on the way there, i saw him. enkil. ^____^ so i said hi and chitchatted. maaaan, he smelled good. waaaay manly and cuddlable (ok, so i just coined that term =p). ish said he wasn't cute. i thus explained the moniker "cpmk".

so we got to the desk, and i was asking the question, when the enkil scent filled the air and someone poked me. damn, i should've poked him back (pointers from ish). i suck at...flirting, was it? anyways, we left, i giddily, and got our classcards.

stage 4: gravity (what goes up, must come down)

i got back to eng'g in time and discovered that i wasn't pre-enlisted in math 53. i headed to math, courtesy of tito f -- thanks, ninja!^_^ i was appalled. it was around 11, and i had to wait til 4 frickin' o'clock to be able to enlist.

so after eating lunch with ninja & folks, i waited.
and waited.
and waited.

WHYwhywhy won't they enlist us already when everyone else has obviously finished? there was a really long queue of freshmen there, and the enlister was just chatting with her companions. when 4 finally arrived, i had to be enlisted by an annoying semi-faggy prat who wanted to put me in the section of a terror teacher who belonged to the infamous voltes five.

stage 5: no change in sight

as if things weren't bad enough, it rained. hard. and when i finally got back to eng'g, i saw enkil again. but this time with that bloodsucker akasha. (okay, i'll be nice.) and i haven't finished enrolling. plus some fat-assed punk (who shall remain nameless) i encountered on the way out of eng'g made some stupid comment about my hair. i had no witty comeback, i just told him it curled whenever i see ugly gits like him. and he was like, you're looking at a mirror.

NO I WASN'T, YOU BIG BLOB OF OOZING FAT. with the mass of binded fat pretending to be human (yes, you), i can't see the stupid "mirror".

but of course i didn't tell him that. maybe i should have one of these outbursts more often.

plus, on the way home, i got in a jeep where some fool got the idea that i wanted to sit on his lap because the jeep was really crowded. i ignored him and the jabs of his companions (damned @$$holes) about me liking the ugly guy.

f*ckers.

oh, and my dad is telling me to SHIFT. this just blows. even one of the people i look up to the most thinks i can't make it through chem eng'g with a scholarship intact.

of enrollment and random conversations

[listening to] stand by me - asayan chou danshi (nesmith & fujioka)

tomorrow, i bid farewell to my freedom. i return to the drudgery of school. *sigh*

...strictly speaking, that isn't true. i am kind of looking forward to school again, to having something to keep me busy. i even miss math, because i can feel my brain just melting away this sem break.-_-

anyways, i told bam about my little mistake~~ texting him if he was okay after i found out that he was going to take the removals. i say mistake, because he didn't reply.

bam: stupid sya if he doesn't appreciate someone who loves him.

me: WHAAT?! i do _not_ love him. i care, that's all.

bam: *pause* uh, right. love, care, concern, whatever.

me: yeah.

i don't think he believes me.x_o

***
everyones into *cough* ragnarok these days. even my kid cousin, kevin.

kevin: ate trish, naglalaro ka ba ng ragnarok?

me: um, dati. di na ngayon kasi nagla-lag e, nakakatamad laruin. tsaka may bayad na.

kevin: hinde, may bagong server na. mabilis. *chatters on about virtues of new server* ...mas mabilis pa sa chaos.

me: talaga? sige, bigyan mo ko ng character.

kevin: meron akong swordie, level 28.

me: level 28 na? gusto ko low-level.

kevin: *looks at me uncomprehendingly* yun na yung pinakamababa ko.

me: baket, ano na ba level mo?

kevin: 65.

maaanisuckatbeingagamer.

i haven't played through any game in...maybe half a year.

~_~