something's gotta give

[listening to] love bug - m-flo loves BoA (i wish they didn't.>_>)

Because my dad's using the PC and I technically shouldn't anywhere be near it, I am "sneak-blogging".>_< This'll be a shortie, folks.

1. Something's Gotta Give = funny. Keanu Reeves kissing Diane Keaton = sorta icky.
2. Kim has a Friendster shirt! Only 140 bucks. Me wants.
3. Britney Spears' "Toxic" is insanely catchy. STAY AWAY.

I promise I shall update sometime soon. One that isn't totally incoherent, like this was. Right now I hear the parental unit coming. Oi.

of beloved people and drunken farewells

[listening to] hadaka ~nude~ - vo vo tau

"Blog-worthy" (to quote a friend) events have been happening all week, perhaps because there hasn't been the usual shitload of requirements.:D

Downloaded One x One (except Track 8, meaning of tears. The link was broken. Guess the webspace owner took it down.>_>), some tracks off Kazaa.
[fangirling] OMG ITOSHII HITO ROCKS!!111![/fangirling]
Anyway, this album sounds more mellow. It's jazzier and somehow more "natural". I think it showcases their voices (which seem to be improving, IMHO) better.

The last track is particularly pretty. It's titled "Itoshii Hito" [Beloved Person(?)] and was produced by Dochin.<33 It gives me this melty, tingly feeling whenever I listen to it. Like there's this infinitely beautiful yet sad feeling that I want to experience, but is quite foreign to me at the moment.

OK, that may have sounded weird. Maybe I emote too much. Anyways, it's hands-down my favorite in this album.

"Itoshii Hito" is also the theme song to a movie, "69". NO, it isn't one of those movies. It appears to be a romance of sorts. I searched it on YesAsia and ended up with a pageful of Chinese movies of questionable virtue...right when my dad walked in. When I explained what I was looking for, he just gave me a LOOK.

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Attended farewall party for Japanese students who had an exposure trip here. Also went to drinking session afterward. Didn't get drunk because I don't like beer. Also I wouldn't want to be a first-time drunk with all them Nihonjin around. Would rather be with my friends.;P

Anyway, learned some drinking songs. My favorite goes like

Ii oto, ii oto (while guy is chugging down alcohol)
Ii otoko
Honto ni totemo ii otoko! (after guy has finished drinking)

For women, just change oto/otoko to onna.

no longer a caveman...oogabooga.

[listening to] sister singing engrish from w~inds song

a whole new hairstyle, i mean. i now have decent chin-length hair, unlike my former "caveman" 'do. it looks okay now, but that's 'cause it was blow-dried and stuff. i only have three words to say: FLY AWAY HAIR.

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have you ever felt like there's so much you can do, places to go, people to see, dreams to fulfill...only you really can't, 'cause you're too lazy?

i feel like i'm in a quicksand of laziness. it's pulling me in. and it's not just about acads, it's about everything. and the funny thing is, sometimes i feel like it's not happening to me. like i'm just a spectator of some stupid girl's life, only i know her better than anyone else.

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hmm, my math prof has a blog. am extremely disappointed with my last exam. that is all.;_;

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oh oh and steph says Furuba is out! will buy tomorrow. hurrah!^____^

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jenn, i'll d/l them (Shinhwa and One x One)when i can. right now school's being a b*tch.:( have you tried peer-to-peer software, like K-Lite, Soulseek or WinMX? i've tried K-Lite but there aren't any tracks yet. Don't worry, when i download them all i'll send you a CD. (One x One is top priority, of course.)^_^ (just let me know if you want 'em.:D)

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i just got from chemistry's official site. a window popped up with something in chinese and korean. i'm glad they're realizing korea and china/taiwan are markets, but what about the rest of asia? don't they realize they have at least 1 (two, if you count my sister) loyal fan in the philippines? and there are all the others in indonesia, singapore...c'mon, sony. f4 isn't the only singing (haha, singing?!) group you can market here!

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a cry for help: does anyone have eps of wedding planner, a j-dorama? jenn has kindly offered to send me a copy of these (I LOVE YOU JENN!^o^), but i feel that i might be abusing her kindness (;_;) and so am trying to get copies on my own. if i really can't get any here, well....

anyone?

spaaaam!

[listening to] first love - shinhwa (!!!)

I want to learn a new language. I'm not giving up on Japanese (>_<), I want to learn something different. I've heard of Esperanto, a "standard" language that's supposed to oppose imperialism (hence the English language) and is also supposedly easier to learn than English. But...meeeh. Also not into Korean or Chinese (methinks I can't handle Hangul just yet). Or French, German, Spanish.

Maybe Elvish? Hehehe.

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ADY-chan, sorry for not replying to your email yet. I wrote something, but as if sensing my pointlessness, the connection screwed up.-_-;;

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Oi oi. If you're interested in custom-made LOTR jewelry, she is your woman. go go.:D

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Random book: I am looking for a copy of Murder on The Links by Agatha Christie. Even secondhand's fine. Anyone?^^;;

hmm.

[listening to] you wanted more - tonic

seems like everyone's blogging these days. by "everyone", i mean my high school batchmates.

i'm kinda scared that they'll stumble upon this. some actually have. if they did, all they would find would be massive chemistry/jpop/mp3/book whoring, some whining, an account of the week every now and then, that sort of stuff. i've learned a few months ago that one should only blog about relatively "safe" topics.

i blog because it's an outlet. because i'm a whiner, attention whore, blah blah. even so, there are some things i'd rather keep to myself. i'm sure that's how it works with everyone.

a moment of revelation.

[listening to] some basketball commentary from TV

Kawabata had HAIR!

that's it, so lame of me. heh.

happy BARRENTIMES day!^^

[listening to] "astro nomikaru expo expo..."

today is a good day. know why? because

1. jenn's package has arrived! it had the 2 as we stand VCDs and the R.A.W Tour, which i haven't watched yet. AAAAHHH THANKEEE JENN!<333 *runs off to watch like a crazy fangirl*
2. got my hands on the next volumes of HYD. ooh hanazawa rui...*_*
3. *whispers* my sister d/led a bunch of w~inds. PVS...*looks around furtively*
4. PJ in Makuhari Special. has chemistry. 'nuff said.
5. no impending major requirements on monday!XDD

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dochin smokes. that is all.

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anyway, went to the UP Fair last thursday (ditching studying for math in the process). we weren't supposed to stay long, but we were there til 11/12 mn. i really wanted to see sugarfree perform live, but they still weren't onstage by the time we left...saw a couple of decent indie bands perform tho. oh, and JAY R. he's a really talented filipino-american r & b singer who made a splash with his ballad, "bakit pa ba" (why). his live performance was pretty good, what will all the fans wanting to mob him. he was really very nice, had a great rapport with the audience, too.

also he threw his jacket to the audience. hehehe.

hey

[listening to] "fun fun we hit the step step..." XDD

does anyone know what j-dramas takeshi kaneshiro's starred in?*_*

must be positive.

[listening to] futari - yoshikuni douchin (or as isteb would say, duuuchin.)

am going to try and be optimistic about all this crap.

oh, and a big shout-out to ADY, who has been my guide into the joys of Kpop. i thought i'd never go beyond brown eyes, and well...heh. now my sister is getting interested in click-B. she's into the whole boyband thing, as the foremost 12-year old w~inds fan in the philippines. sankyuu ne~~~<333

mmmhmm, mmmhmmm, wait for me...

plagued with doubt

[listening to] "i feel that i miss you/your song remains the same/..." WTF? what are the lyrics of this part of the song? damned engrish.

i like making lists. it makes me feel like i'm actually closer to accomplishing the goals/tasks i've written down. and there is a certain satisfaction to crossing something off a list because you're done with it.

first, the Master List To Rule Them All:
1. Things I Should Be Doing
2. Things I Ditched Things I Should Be Doing For

i know, it's short and just stupid, boring stuff. but this is actually an effort to be productive. i am failing miserably. -_-

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Things I Should Be Doing

1. working on my Physics technical paper (and Chem formal report...blah, blah)
2. uploading mp3s into my phone
3. trying to understand what in tarnation is angular momentum/velocity/acceleration. i am such a dumbass.
4. catching some shut-eye

Things I Ditched Things I Should Be Doing For

1. Friendster. 'nuff said.
2. downloading mp3s
3. thinking about life forms i used to pretend not to exist
4. making stupid lists because i have no life, and wondering if people actually read this crap blogging

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i am getting panicky about my grades. i don't think i'll be making it to the 2.0 GWA cut-off mark. I KNOW, i said it last sem. but this time the feeling of dread is way, way more tangible. uuugh. i wish i could be like certain people i know who say "grades don't determine your self-worth" and stuff like that. i know what they mean, but grades have become so much a part of my lifestyle/life choices that i tend to think of myself in terms of marks. i know there's so much more to life, but old habits die hard. and for a long time (well, okay. just elementary school.), getting high grades was the only thing i was good at. i sucked at music, sports, dance, social interaction, video games...graaah.

okay, will stop whining now.

still wondering if chemical engineering really is for me. apart from the fact that it's become very obvious that i suck at this kind of thing, there is a preference for MALES when hiring. also, my heart isn't really into it.

but i haven't done anything to terminate the DOST scholarship yet.

i'm not even sure if i'm going to shift. if so, where? i'm considering linguistics (major in east asian languages), geography (i find my geography GE quite interesting ^_^) or psychology. all not remotely related to chemical engineering.

what have i gotten myself into?

i can make things happen.

I HAVE TO MAKE THINGS HAPPEN.